From Disappointment to Discernment

Jillian “Mama J” Love
4 min readSep 16, 2022

3 Truths to Move Forward

On Thursday, September 1 — the first of the month, I sat with disappointment while asking myself the question:

Is it your day one or your one day?

That day, I chose to make it my day one. The invitation to pour into the truth of the moment and practice the lesson that keeps revealing itself — tell the truth every time.

And so, on the other side of the Full Moon in Pisces, I practice and remind us all that…

The heart of justice is truth telling, seeing ourselves and the world the way it is rather than the way we want it to be. More than ever before we, as a society, need to renew a commitment to truth telling. — bell hooks

Here’s what is, which feels invisible while true — 1 person* signed up for the Beyond Allyship Accelerator and before registration closed, there were none. Intellectually, I know it’s not personal.

Folx are busy.

Funds are tight.

The timing wasn’t right.

And, because multiple things can be true at the same time…

My intuition, the inner knowing in my sacral, is experiencing how most whyte women in the social sector (any sector really) are NOT willing to put something on the line (aka share resources, opportunities, and social capital) for Black and brown leaders.^

* I’m grateful to be in communication with this sole participant who answered my call to co-design a cohort of whyte women to participate in the one-day intensive in her home city. If this piques your interest, then please hit reply.

^ If this stings, ask yourself why?

Sitting with Disappointment

I’ve allowed myself to surrender to the wisdom and emotional experience that comes with disappointment. I sat by the water to alchemize. I swam it out. I sat with the ebb and flow of it all.

Allowing myself to take the time I needed to pen my thoughts fully.

In fact, I found myself returning to Atlas of the Heart by Brené Brown to deepen my understanding of emotion. The quote below gives voice to my murky and painful experience with…

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Jillian “Mama J” Love

CEO & Intentional Justice™ Strategist @mamajlove1 🌈 Bite-sized + deliberate action every damn day! #IntentionalJustice